“As I have heard numerous times, adoption is not a cure for infertility. The adoption didn’t make the pain of infertility go away, but it did make me a mother three times. Infertility, as well as adoption, can be a roller coaster of emotions. It is important to feel those emotions, have a support system that can help you, and find hobbies or activities that will help keep you occupied during these roller coasters. Infertility can be one of the hardest things to endure and adoption can be one of the greatest joys of life.”
Alicia Nelson January 09, 2021
Good morning good people, I encountered the agony of infertility twice this week. Immediately my thoughts went back to our journey in it. To be honest it does seem like a distant memory because our lives are full of Grade 7 Term 4… amongst other things.
I’ve had to slam the brakes down hard and stand totally still for a bit. Our adoption has changed me. I looked back with trepidation at the eighteen year journey that cost me everything and tore at my heart and left me in shreds. The shattered heart, the endless stream of tears and the walls of steel I built around me have all disappeared.
When did it change, twelve years along now and I cannot pinpoint the moment or tell you when but that sliver of a woman I was has been replaced by mum. I’ve become a lion a bear, a lamb and an array of others in my role as mum.
The strength is unmatched and the love incredible. I look back at the young woman I was and don’t regret her journey, she has made me the fierce fighter I am today. My fight remains to “fill empty homes and orphan hearts’’
Adoption is beautiful for me, for us. I love how I’ve healed and am eternally grateful to God for this chosen path.
For those in the valley of decision, may your choice find you and heal you. Love always